Peeelings, nothing more than peeelings...

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Good ending and The world God only knows have stories that strike a cord in me. Good ending talks to me because ... I'm generally nice to people, just like the main

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 I yearn for the emotions that I've felt before, emotions that are brought back whenever I read GE - Good Ending. There's that innocent desire to be with the one you love. There's the naive confusion you go through whenever your lover does something that doesn't make sense. There's the racing heartbeat you get whenever your eyes meet. There's the calm contentment just by being in each other's company.

 The times that I were able to feel those things were few and far in between. [tilts head to the right] Unless I am selectively remembering things, which does not bode well.

 Anyhow, the times that I do remember feeling those things made the bad and worse parts worthwhile. ... [blinks in recollection] Wait a minute, the only times I felt those were when I was still relatively naive. [tilts head to the left] Does that mean the loss of relative innocence reduces the shine and beauty of romance?

 At any rate, I do want to feel those emotions again. The vibrant all-consuming feelings from a romantic relationship, chaotic they may be, are beautiful. As Nora Roberts said through Eve Dallas, "Love lets you see more."

 [tilts head to the left] Of course, I first need to identify a viable partner. The existing situation is hardly conducive for such [sighs], but that's that.

 On a related note, it's a tad sad that Seiji has decided to give up on Yuki. His innocence and accepting nature seemed like the perfect balm for Yuki's wounds. [shrugs] Tis too bad Yuki's too hung up on her past. Fortunately, Shou still has feelings for Seiji. No, I don't think Oonuma-san would be a good match. She's too needy. Unless she grows out of it, she'd be a bad match for everybody.

Backtrack

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 During my elementary (grade school), I had a female best friend that I'll hide behind the name "Breezy". She led me and her other friends to lots of fun adventures [smirks in amusement], which included a fair amount of trouble (that thankfully weren't made known to our parents).

 Breezy smiled a lot and she shared a lot of my hobbies such as reading and watching cartoon TV shows as we approached our teens. She gave me a book when we graduated on the 6th grade since we were going to different High Schools. Sir Walter Scott's Ivanhoe wasn't a first in the genré since I was given an abbreviated portion of part of Le Morte d'Arthur when I reached the 3rd grade. However, Ivanhoe opened a lot of doors as it had a lot of "thee" and "thou" while introducing new concepts that I was only able to appreciate years after.

 Breezy and I kept in touch during the first two years of high school. I'd ride my bike to her house, we'd exchange stories and be ourselves. She gave me another book, Robert McKinney's Homecoming (4th in the novel adaptation of the Macross saga). Of course, since she attended a Science High School, the academic pressures prevented further interaction until we met again while we prepared for the College Entrance Exams.

 I was happy to see a familiar and friendly face in those preparatory classes. We made a mutual friend (who sadly didn't make it into the University of the Philippines like we did), re-affirmed bonds and learned. [tilts head to the right] Well, I learned more than she did since most of the topics covered in the classes have already been discussed during her classroom hours.

 Upon getting admitted to the University of the Phillipines-Manila (hers was direct while mine was more circuitous), we managed to keep in touch. Sure, her course was taxing as it was the accelerated Medical Course (designed to turn you into a doctor within seven years, provided you don't go mad or depressed along the way) but she managed. I, however, had to leave the University as my skills weren't up to the task.

 A year passed in the school that I transferred to. I was walking home with my first girlfriend when I met her on Padre Faura. I introduced my girl to her then I was surprised that she rebuffed me, saying that it's all fine and dandy but I forgot that the day was also her birthday.

 At least a decade has passed since that event. True, the sting has passed. I still am confused that she was annoyed that I didn't remember her birthday when she didn't bother to greet me on any of mine before that occasion. I mean, you forgot mine so shouldn't it be fine that I forgot yours when both of us meant no malice [tilts head to the right]?

 Anyhow, ever since the social networking websites have taken root (which would be after that incident), I've taken to hiding my birthday. When Friendster was in vogue, I would move my birthday a month behind whenever it approached. Now that Facebook is the rage, it took some time but I eventually found a way to hide my birthday.

 Just recently, only my blood family and some of my adopted sisters were able to greet me. It was satisfying [smiles like a well-fed cat].

 So, yeah, if Breezy crosses my path again, what would I do? On the spot (while I'm writing this), I've decided to greet her with a genuine heartfelt smile. She was my best friend then. Should she want to leave things in the ditch, my hands would be clean.

Shirogane

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 Last Tuesday, I was surprised to see that my Nokia X2 (which I've named Shirogane) was turned off. Concerned, I turned it on after ejecting the microSD. Inserting the microSD card after Shirogane finished booting, I was surprised when it didn't show that it was updating the media library.

 Numerous restarts passed until I got home. There, I swapped cards, putting in another card that I knew was working. The card was read and I was able to play the stored songs; which lead to the conclusion that the installed card is dead.

 It wasn't the first time that the card died so it wasn't surprising that it eventually gave up the ghost [sighs]. Unfortunately, IF I'm not listening to music during my off hours, my aural memory plays back pieces of the various conversations I've had with the customers.

 So, I've had to suffer through 3 pre-sleep-cycles of hearing those recorded voices.

[shudders in remembered pain]

 Thanks to my adopted twin sister and her bro, I was able to resurrect Shirogane's MP3 playing capabilities. That meant I had to have only 3 hours of sleep but I was able to get a LOT of the songs I wanted plus some of those that I've lost. [shrugs] I still have a lot of songs to recover but that's par for the course.